Who Would I Be?

What would I do,
And who would I be,
If there were no ‘shoulds’
Or ‘should nots’?
Would there still be such
Conflict in my mind if these
Limitations did not exist?
What would it mean to be ‘me’
If there were no ingrained
Social control mechanisms?
In what ways would life be different?
Or would it be just the same?

Running on Instincts

Running on instincts –
Well, so it seems.
I’m still breathless,
Still shaking,
Totally lost for words.
Wishing I could bask
In the afterglow
Of your ‘natural talent.’
It’s all so new,
So pure,
So incredibly beautiful.
I don’t want to
Ruin it by thinking.
Running on instincts,
Seems the only option.

Forever Grateful

I want to express my gratitude,
To pour out my heart and soul
And sincerely thank you.
I know I have told you before,
But every day I am learning
I will be grateful forever more,
Because you unleashed me.
You gave me confidence.
You taught me to love my body.
And that is just the start.
You made me more aware of
The conflict of head and heart.
You taught me to be patient,
To trust what is in the here and now,
And not assume bad intent.
I will never be able to list
All of the incredibly amazing
Experiences and gifts
You have given me,
But my dearest wish
Is for you to be happy
And know that you have changed
My life for the better, even though
We’ve been through so much pain.

Delight

Your words make me so happy
It seems we are both becoming free
Strange forces are once more
In motion, opening door after door
So many choices could be made
And as for my latest escapade
I’m sure it will appear in writing
But for now I am delighting
In the sense of adventure
Embracing and relishing the pleasure
Of being myself

If You’re Gone

As I said, I really didn’t want
Our last memories to be so awful
Although, perhaps they are
Only gut-wrenching for me?
I’ve wondered this many times
Since your tone of contempt and hate
And now this song brings
It all back, clear as day,
So I need to say,
“If you’re gone…
Perhaps you should
Just stay gone
Because now I’ve
Had a break from the lies
I’m becoming me
Once more.”