I get so caught up
In my own grief and pain
And focus so much
On trying to stay sane
I forget your arsehole act
Is not really you
But a defence to counteract
And protect what is true
So forgive me please
For thinking the worst
And failing to see
Your heart’s also burst
And shattered into pieces


Oh boy! What trouble I’m in
Just the thought has me in a spin
I want to hold on so tight
And give with all my might
But something’s holding me back

I don’t want to go where I’ve just been
And nor do you from what I’ve seen
So for now I guess we wait
And call each other mate
Until the dust settles at least

Both deep and dark and convoluted
Both carrying scars and persecuted
Our bodies say what we’re unable
All emotions set on the table
But words are never spoken

And that suits me fine to hear no words
After all the lies and crap I’ve heard
Yet part of me has come alive
Has somehow managed to survive
And wants to bask in adoration

I feel your pain as I do my own
And you feel mine so says your tone
But what do we do from here?
I’m not used to one so sincere
Or so trusting with their heart

Perhaps it’s that which holds me back
From drowning in your aphrodisiac
Maybe I’m scared of my power
To hurt and completely devour
You with my intensity

But then I remember we are the same
To neither of us is this a game
But we would never say so
Always keeping our feelings below
The point of no return

You make me wonder if what I see
Is what others encounter when looking at me
It’s like you hold up a mirror
Each time you come a little nearer
And my heart hurts for both of us

Time will tell or so they say
And after seeing you today
I wish time would hurry up and share
The story of how, when and where
We will both be free to love again


You can keep your naked body,
I’m attracted to very few,
It’s your words and
Your intelligence
That makes me turn to goo.
So while everyone is gawking
At the latest, hottest porn,
Just sit here with me talking,
And watch the stars and moon,
Solve the world’s mysteries,
Talk philosophy for hours.
That’s how you win me over,
I promise, please don’t laugh,
And if you’re really lucky,
You’ll even get my heart.


I wonder if you will
Ever come to understand
How much you have given me?
Your gifts have been
Inadvertent, I know,
Given without your knowledge,
But that does not lessen
The degree to which
I treasure them.
I can’t imagine
Finding anyone else
Who could awaken me
In the way you have.
Your love, once again,
Given subconsciously,
Has been a lifeline,
And the thought
Of living without it
Hurts my heart
Far more than
I would like to admit.
There is no way
I can repay you.
All I can do
Is love you
With everything I have
And wish you
All the joy in the world.


I assume someone else
Now has your heart
The way I used to
The thought makes me sad
But I can’t think
Of anything I can do
To make things
The way they once were
I know I will cry
And suffer the pain
But I hope with all my heart
You are happy